This new week begins a new journey of infinite possibilities. Opening new doors is always difficult after finding comfort in the familiarity of a task. But I made up my mind after two weeks of unfolding series of events that painted answers in clear, vivid pictures. No one truly cares if you move a whole family, sacrifice a job, and travel hundreds of miles away from the comfort of your home. They said one has to sacrifice in order to start. So, I had to make that decision even if I cannot predict the end result. What made me stronger is knowing that I have a supportive family behind my back. The move was not seamless… we went through struggles, drove through nature’s worst moods, and made it. Until that day – that night, to be precise. That night when I realized that the sacrifices I made do not really count much on someone’s eyes.

It only took one call with a question at 8:15 in the evening. I felt the respect I held on tightly for months just shredded into pieces as I sat in front of Albertson’s, with the phone on my ear – listening. Weighing in.  I composed myself and answered questions with the forced grace that I perfected after several unwanted work experiences under select leaderships in the past. I’ve been always nice. But I learned that being too nice won’t get me anywhere in life. Opportunities will pass me and positions will be taken away from me. Plain and simple. It happened before, it was bound to happen again.

The fact that I caught myself truly disappointed and writing an email 30 minutes later says I can’t live with myself again if I don’t say my piece. A piece that was left unanswered, that is to say it in a lighter shade. The feeling of being ignored didn’t sit too well with me. I know I have more doors to open and I have the key to do it. I am capable of more. And just like Selaine said, it is not just an investment to better my capabilities, it is also taking the chance to dedicate myself. Basically, a career is a two-way street. They teach you and you learn. And you give back.

I want to be treasured as an employee. It is my desire to be needed. I have to be better to myself because no one else will. I never complained of my situation, neither have I used my situation to take advantage of a system. I’ve worked well enough to be granted the respect I deserve. If one is not capable of giving me that individual need that I so desire, then I don’t want to take the time to prove myself either…

I am jumping off the wagon loaded with empty promises. Now that I am here, it is time to seek for my own personal growth…