This has been my longest period of blog inactivity since the absence I had to take after Elijah’s birth in 2011. Believe me, I’ve been trying to break free from my busy life to be off my temporary hiatus. However, between saying it and making it happen, are things that are impossible for me to turn my back on. And if you are a mom, you ought to know what I mean. So let me start with the current update about what’s going on here in my side of the world…

My Son’s eczema is becoming manageable everyday. It has a lot to do with him getting older, I believe, and slowly building up that needed immune system to overcome minor allergic reactions. He is growing up to be a sweet boy and often times responsible. However, I noticed that his terrible two’s is starting early with all the crying-for-mommy’s-attention. It is natural, of course. I survived Alyssa’s so surely I will do better this time…

Our six year old started 2nd grade already. She’s been very excited to go back, I guess she got tired of not doing anything the whole summer. The week before classes, we went through her closet full of clothes and sorted all of the outfits she’s to use for five weeks! Yup, she can go five weeks without reusing the same item. And talking about her clothes, they ain’t no cheap at $18-20/T-shirt and around $24-26/dress. I do not know how she does it but she persuaded her Dad  to buy her a dress at JCPenney for $34.00.

Rolly and I are looking forward to celebrating our 11th anniversary before this month ends. 11 years of being married… still, I find everyday to be a learning experience. Perhaps, I should commend myself by saying I am a better person, a better wife, a better mom. Patience, I realize can be elusive when you are single and young, but becomes an innate nature once you find yourself married with children. Not everyday is bliss, I tell you, but a blessing to be thankful for. That kind of gift you have to cherish and treasure no matter how much hard work it requires from you because  you realize that it is indeed an axiomatic fact that FAMILY fills up a significant hole in your life…

With everything that is going on with my personal life, work is also seeming unfolding smoothly on the parallel side. Though, there are unavoidable issues just like in any work environment, I am shutting things down before they do damage and cause me senseless stress. I am looking way ahead in the future. This, what I am doing now is temporary. And one day, on its passing, I hope to only remember it like a wraith through a mist. I don’t wish to keep lasting memories of what I had to go through on those unfortunate and torturing days when I came back from maternity. It is a challenge that tried my self-esteem and my trust, and definitely did a permanent dent on how I see people around me.

The truth is, trust is over rated. It is a bitter experience that taught me to be more careful on who I open my doors to. At the same time, it pushed me to turn my head and truly pursue the field where I invested so much of my time and money on. However, I will never forget select people that hold me anchor to my original faith in fellowship. Those that I work with – with open mind and open heart, and without the fear of being judged. The names I will hold firmly to shield me from social cynicism and cynicism in the sense of animosity.

I am good. But I owe it to myself to do better… by looking back, I see the traces of footsteps I took. I haven’t taken the direct route but I am a fatalist after all… I believe in fate and that things are predetermined for a reason.