It was good to see Allen (my second stepson) yesterday after my Dr’s appointment. He flew back home from New York after a business trip. He actually looked great! I am very proud of how grown up and how responsible he’s become. He is working as a band manager in LA, and works form some famous bands. It is a pretty busy work but I can tell he loves it. It is what he wants to do and if he makes it big on that industry one day, I won’t be surprised. We talked for good twenty minutes. He said he will try to come visit us on the weekend. We hugged each other and what made my day was hearing him say: I love you. It was such a good feeling…
The boys are now all grown up. Gone were those days when I argue with them just like having little brothers. The fact is that when you get older, you learn more about compromise. Being the youngest in the family, I always have it my way. Now that I have a little one, I learned to be giving and more understanding. Sometimes, I still find myself caught up to that “Me and Myself” concept, but I try to back down. I am better… I guess. I would like to think I really am.
Right now, everything is going on as planned. We are hapoy with what we’ve got. I agree with Rolly when he says: All that matters is US. And that’s what we’ve been working hard for a long time. What others think is irrelevant… This is our journey together. This is our life together. Sometimes I can’t quite understand why there are those that you cannot possibly explain – not necessarily people ( ayaw ko na naman pong magkasala), can be events and other happenings; but I guess that’s how it is in the real world. NO SUCH THING AS PERFECT.
Life is a process… it is a wheel. It goes around. You won’t always have what you got now, the same way as you will never be on the same spot as you are right now. The rule is that, don’t be over judgmental. And don’t be bitter either. It is always better to not say anything. Yes, I do write. I do blog. It is how I pick myself up. I’d rather do that than answering back. At least I can tell my whole story… my pace, my time.